Continuation from yesterday

Mirrors again.

How did I miss the entire picture? I saw portions of myself and the "guy" as a super hero duo.

Do I understand with how I treated myself over the years, not very nice that I could expect a man to do the same?

And here I am matching him in the soul department blind to how wonderful I am. He saw me as wonderful too.

He is a very special man, beautiful in many ways and I wonder if he'll ever see how special he is?
I did tell him. And uh, I also pointed things out not critically, but honestly lil things that affected me negatively. Like making promises, he didn't keep. He didn't keep them, because he was afraid and still living in the past.

Guess what? So was I, YAY! I admit it! I was afraid, at that time, what would I have done if he would've followed through?

And hey, do I know how special I am? He used to tell me how special and wonderful I was, but did I really believe it?

I look in the mirror now and you know what I see, when I see me?
-Faithful ad honest, kind, emotionally stable, sweet soul, intelligent, attractive, laughs easily, outgoing, generous, love myself and am loving everybody, committed to being open to marriage, loving, great smile, Mom, divorced, content with my career path, like to travel for pleasure, stable but spontaneous, a degree of introspection, sex is the best, love to communicate, becoming financially solvent. Willing to make a man a priority.....well guess what? That is what I want in a guy. Although, it may sound picky, I would prefer him to be financially solvent (not becoming--like myself)....cuz, I have been through that struggle in a relationship before and it can become the whole focal point of a relationship.

Now I am ready to find out with whomever the "MAN" who will be my husband is...

I have no idea who will be the man I marry, but for the past several years, I didn't realize how I kept myself safe from that ever happening-wrapped in my fears, living in the past, scared yet I didn't even realize these were all obstacles I created, my beliefs kept me single. I was never in any danger of being fulfilled by love, now I have shifted and sorted....and it is all good.