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Interesting today....

I was aware of something I noticed in waves over the last several months. Almost like an out of body experience.

It's way more in depth and it's hard to explain.

I have become closer to "what I want" in so many ways.

Along the way I've lost and gained things, people, places and pounds.

I've lost so many identifying things in my life:
I was a runner; I was someone who struggled and suffered; I took on relationships thinking I would make it work no matter what, but gradually after being put thru the meat grinder I walked; I was a corporate person; I tried to live my idea of perfection; I hid away from people--A LOT; I was on a career track different than the one now, which will not happen until I graduate; I always watched my weight-mostly through running; I suffer pain when I walk *fingers crossed* hoping that doesn't go away too; I could keep going, but you get the picture.

The POINT is... I'm DONE.

I'm done with what was and have moved onto what is and what can be. I remember a psychic telling me awhile back; In a year, I wouldn't recognize myself and in some ways it is happening before my eyes. In other ways I have had to mourn certain things. A whole LOTTA mourning went on here. I am so DONE with mourning.

I have to look at the trade off and the biggest, most cool part....I don't give a shit about what I lost.

I find I am not worried about much,(except putting food on the table and paying my bills) and I'm really going with my intuition, it is quite weird.

I have a strong urge right now, as I sit in the waiting room at the chiropractor's office to go home and clear out more stuff from my room, my life, my house...a major purge. Almost like a crazy urge is taking over to have my space as clear as my energy!!!!

So, aside from my PMS hell each month, I hope for the next few days to bring more happy surprises and miracles!