Sheer Freakin Joy

One has just to be oneself. That's my basic message. The moment you accept yourself as you are, all burdens, all mountainous burdens simply disappear. Then life is a sheer joy, a festival of lights-Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

Thought of the walk: Now I will attract men who I used to think I wasn't good enough for...men who I am good enough for now.

What changed?

Absolutely nothing, except my perception about my life and me in it.

I also think all people who think they aren't good enough, find others who aren't good enough and make up the two halves of the whole rotten walnut. Seriously, settling for mediocrity in themselves and their life. You'd have to be a nut of some sort to wish your life to be lived out in such a small shell.

It's a vicious circle. A cycle of self-belief that keeps you stuck in hell, replete with noxious fumes when the bathroom door gets left open.

Think about the fact - if someone felt they were good enough, then wouldn't they BELIEVE love was gonna getcha! And if someone thinks they are good enough, wouldn't they treat themselves pretty damn good? And you too?

If you treat people bad, what does that say about you? It says you are pretty much one unhappy piece of shit.

My favorite saying is either you come from love or fear.
Ding, ding, ding!!!!

Guess what? I chose fear for yeeeaaaarrrsss! I was delusional thinking I chose love for years.

Interestingly enough, I see it clearly now-I don't hide from myself-the shades are stuck in the up position thanks to my lids and so now I can see right in the windows to my soul (except for the grimy handprints on the pane of course). It is a nice view. One I feel an extreme giddiness over lately.

Ill never be perfect, but I'm good enough.