light the candles of intention

here is what i sent off late last week with a few candles to the universe.

i don't remember ever having lit so many candles and praying as much as i have in this past year...and quite literally in the last month.

February...started with a trip, a breaking off for good with someone I thought would be in my future, achievement of reaching less than zero in my bank account for more days this month than not, being evicted in 6 weeks...and not having steady work--its been a good month.

i have a project i have started with no final settlement on money as of yet, but being in a place of nothing, you come to the conclusion that you are only going to be offered table scraps and take what you can get...i have held out for so long for abundance...i thought in terms of things would come together, because i was allowing it...i was planting seeds, networking, dating...smiling and saying "hi" to most people i meet or see on the street.

only to come up with nothing. z-i-p

so, in those moments of realization, you sometimes think, well maybe the universe doesn't quite hear me...doesn't get my goals or beliefs or wants or needs. and you think ....maybe i'll ask in a way that really, really puts the torch behind the thought.

not sure if it helps or does nothing (thus far--nothing)....plus this one is different than other ones i have done...i try all sorts of different approaches hoping something sticks.

it just feels out of control in a sense....like i am not in control of my life at all.

so this is one i said last week: I light these candles with no ill intent toward anyone and for the higher good of all.

i light the red candle to bring a long-lasting, good love into my life, in which, we will be wedded in bliss together this year 2009.

i light the blue candle to bring health, restore health and be healthy for a very long time til the end of my days on earth. this is for the universe to reverse any ill health i have now too.

i light the green candle to expedite the work and money now. to bring to fruition to all of the seeds i have planted. to see the fruits blossom -- money comes to me freely. good work that is satisfying comes to me now.

the white candle is to bring new beginnings, happiness, clarity with the intentions and clarity in my life with its purity. i look for the external circumstances to improve beyond my wildest dreams, right now.

and here i am ....sum=0