Love will find you

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.

And so it goes on and on...this song has been stuck in my head for the past 24 hours. I don't know why. I woke up this morning with the specific part of it replaying over and over: What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What about now? Now that we're here, Now that we've come this far, Just hold on. There is nothing to fear, For I am right beside you. For all my life, I am yours.

I cannot seem to make it go away, like OCD in my head!

I hate to even say it, because I really want to not write another word about Cherub.

But, before I heard from him toward the end of last year….this “artist” and his songs always reminded me of Cherub. And when we are on the ill-fated vacation, this song and two others of his seemed to play everywhere I went that week with him. WEIRD! Who cares though it doesn’t matter anymore.

I was delusional. I was desperate, how else can you love someone who doesn’t love you back?