the pity party is now more ...

It has moved from an all day all night event, into some hours of the day.
Today was a weird day for a variety of reasons.
Today I saw a vehicle with his name emblazoned on the side of it, you know the town crier, joker or whatever the hell name i have given him at this point, his company name is his name. As I sat with my friend, it drove by....one I hadn't seen before. Yay for me!

With my living situation, I am thinking I may move out of the area permanently. I just want it all behind me like a bad dream.

The only thing is leaving two of my kids behind. Yes, one of them is 19 and the other is graduating high school in a couple months. I really figured if they move out cuz of school or they have their own place, then cool. But, in this sort of fashion it just sucks....really sucks. My ex is an alcoholic, my kids would have to live full time with him and that is a tough nut to crack.

I don't want to ever see that idiot again. I don't think he'll contact me, because the more i talk about it with others the more convinced i am, that he has a screw loose. Who else goes from one extreme to another in "hours"...and did it even in the beginning of our dating, but i was still trying to understand what he was saying/doing back then. Why? Cuz i never have dated a commitment-phobic asshole, that's why. Call me stupid, but i have never experienced any sort of bullshit like that in my life..... Men can be a little afraid, but to say and do what he did....he's in need of some Paxil, Zoloft and a pedicure. ;-)

My landlord speaks in circles and doesn't listen. His trip over here today was a waste of time. I can try to come up with what I owe by the end of the month....but I think he sees it differently. I think he just wants me gone. And at this point, I had to let go this morning. I really had to just say, "Whatever happens, happens."