tonight

my friend "M" came over tonight. it was lovely. i have really, really good friends....more than i ever knew....

my friend "H" told some of my friends how i need my friends, cuz i was falling down the sewer.

that made me cry too.

everything is making me cry. happy or sad at this point.

i am wondering how i will make it through this time. this is so incredibly difficult. i am not sure besides my divorce that things have ever been more challenging.

i keep hoping things will start to go in an upwards direction....and then i realize it doesn't change...at all. but, i have friends. that i do.